to FRUSTRATION!

“YOU'RE FRUSTRATED BECAUSE YOU KEEP WAITING FOR THE BLOOMING OF FLOWERS OF WHICH YOU HAVE YET TO SOW THE SEEDS”

Its been days,that I haven't blogged or even wrote a single word.I had too much going on from last few days.But the question remains that,how can I respire without even writing?Even I am finding it hard to answer!In my previous blogs I wrote about 'moving-on' and 'procrastinating' and 'pretending'.But,today I'll be talking about 'frustration'.Yes,frustration-which makes you do cray-cray stuff & which is caused by 'the emotional assault' by people!In my brand new illustration,I used flustered tone of colours!They are bright & colourful but dull at the same time,too.The original classic illustration is captured by Mario Testino for the "Living Vogue Lady" Kate Moss in Miu Miu. I like it,how Kate looks attentive and focused.She is the ultimate example of "WOMEN ON THE GO" -she goes to work every day and is still probably working at a nine to five pace!I wonder how bad it tastes!She is 'frustrated'-Oh yes,the 'f' word is written all over her face.She is frustrated because she is pressurised with deadlines,she is afraid of being down-sized.So she wake's up every morning, with a big smile on her face and be up-tight and never recites her emotions out of her skull.However,my very own homemade apple production(i.e. my illustration on the right) I used colours but made them look arid!I traced out the original illustration and made an identical twin with the help of a stencil.The paper on which I created this blend of a lady is 26 years old.Yes,26!I found it hidden under a Indian ethnic metal box,which belonged to my mother!And I also made the paper look old with a vintage stamp!Well,that was the tale of construction  of my homemade apple production!Now,lets talk about the 'obscura'-of how I managed to experiment a emotion called 'frustration' in my illustration!Well,the tale continues and you can see that the outline is clearly visible of the figure and I used a dark highlighter pencil to do that so.But its 'light and hollow' from the inside!The two colors and the reason behind making two of them was to show you the clarity of 'frustration'.She has another side to herself-which is unexplored and untouched.She herself doesn't know, that she has another side to herself.She is always frustrated and just thinks of herself in another color because she doesn't know what she is other than the frustrated women!Which shows she believes that somewhere in her mind she is not shallow or frustrated but just the one she believes she is.So,I'd like end my blog right here & tell you that I have no solutions for your 'frustration' or anything but I'd like to tell you that believe in yourself and you'll find an 'un-frustrated' side to yourself.But I can recommend you some solution by my illustration that,if you're at the end of your rope...then untie the knot in your heart! And LIVE!
So Share your views and please share it with your friends & 'Frustrate' the 'Frustration' to not 'Frustrate' yourself! :)

Toddles!

They Pretend!

"I'M TIRED OF PRETENDING,TIRED OF ACTING LIKE EVERYTHING'S OKAY,TIRED OF NOT BEING WITH HIM..."

I was not a 'pretender' today!I talk to so many people,everyday-but,somehow that's not me they are talking to but me.I understand that this expression is confusing,but then my life is full of chaos & piss too.I have always 'wanted' to satisfy people with my behaviour and ended up ignoring what I have always 'needed'!I was arguing with a friend of mine today about 'who gets affected more?'-Yes,I know what you are thinking-we were having a 'Affect-Off',as you might call it that way!She blamed me for being 'egoistic','self-absorbing' and 'mean'-somehow,she meant I am the devil's disciple,at least that's how I see it!Her allegation's did not affected me nor,I was offended by any of those words-Don't both my thoughts mean the same.Weird!However,does it mean that I have no shame?-Well,I still seem confused about this one question.

I was perfectly 'calm',but for some completely weird reason I shouted and fought courageously for the frugal blames plunged into my soul with a silver spoon!
Yeah,who doesn't like some drama as pleasure?!I confess,I am a hedonist,so yeah!

I continued safe-guarding my jeopardised image and at one point I wanted to sing 'Hit Me With Your Best Shot By Pat Benatar'.Later,she said;'I am superficial'-Oh yes she said that 's' word! But,I had to remember that I won't fight like a 'bitch' and jump on her and bite off her liver or something!
So,I said;'Hah!Spurious claims!Yeah,that's what they are.'-this is what I said just like a boss.
In addition,I continued like a boss;'I am what I am,I like the way I misbehave'.I paused for effect.'I know I get dysfunctional at times,but that's what I need!And,oh yes i know I have *P.R.E.C.O.C.I.O.U.S.* written all over me'.

Afterwards,she apologised of what had happened and was extremely sorry.So,I forgot that she called me 'egoistic' and I also forgot she said the 's' word to me and I forgave her!
Nah!None of that happened.She never apologised and we had to talk to each other since she was suppose to help me with my assignment on 'Malaria'.Later,when I got some free time to myself-I couldn't let my mind avoid this argument between us!Because,I believe-the stuff I said just for the sake of saying-I actually meant it,all of it!I was me for once and that was the first time I,myself even realised that it was me!I understood the fact that all of us somehow pretend to be pretending and ignore 'things' but somewhere,deep down in our golden heart,we do feel ugly and embarrassed for those 'things'.I just said all of the stuff I really meant in a extremely dramatic way,because that 'drama' was the pretending part!This time,it was me who needed the 'Move-ON' factor to stop pretending and be me and I learnt that 'I am me and that's all I can be'.

The illustration I made today is once again inspired by my day!The original picture is from my favourite magazine, 'Vogue',from 2007 September issue.Grace Coddington looks fabulous and this 'Jump Shot',as they call it-is one of my favourite vogue shot!The way she makes the camera crew jump shows how she is ready to leave the ground and be herself while pretending to be a cover model!So my illustration is a bit experi-mental.My illustration is my interpretation of the original photo.My illustration is tearing up at the seams!It's in red and its basically 'fashion obscura'- I experimented my feelings on a photo,that is what all my illustration are about.These photos are my journal or personal diary or whatever you like to call it!I'll wrap this up now and just say that my today's illustrations somehow,is telling you that;'I know I have issues,but you are pretty messed up too!'

So,the world is full of pretenders and thinkers!So,Nobody can judge and we all are equally being ourselves!Pretending is a stubborn mistress!

I hope you like it and share your views and share it with your friends! :)

Bye!

The Vintage Dior Illustrations

"AND ALSO PUT YOUR SKETCHES OF FASHION DRESSES ON A PAPER!"

The perfect Dior vintage illustration perfectly shows that Christian Dior 'knows' what women want? I loved this image and every time reminds me of the exhibition where those vintage 'parfums' & poster adverts were displayed in 2010.
However,my interpretation of John Galliano's work for Dior is a little 'retro-ish' & 'rough'-the ink made it seem rough,which is messy but at the same time it makes it look like New School.The fingerprint at the bottom right of my illustration makes it a little more interesting,i guess.I like it,how that print is at that specific place and how you can sense the colour schemes.Its Black & White,but then its Blue-Somehow,you just can't relate both the illustrations,its funny how colours change the whole perception of ones mind!The blue colour,however I added.in order to show you guys that this illustration isn't complete yet,I mean it is complete but it is not complete!What I really mean to say is that this colour tells you that there is so much 'more' to it,because the truth is that women themselves feel pretty confused of what they want? I mean its not 'love',which happens instantly,its Style!its about pulling a great face while wearing a 'head-turner' dress and looking 'extra-ordinary' and setting up a style statement!So I'd like to finish this up for now and just tell you to add every single element of your own choice to my illustration in order to make it look good on you and then rock your heels off & celebrate.BECAUSE YOU JUST GAVE A STYLE STATEMENT!
I'll be putting up some other photo manipulations of the same illustration with different colour schemes and elements,soon.Hope,you liked it and please I beg do share your views-it'd mean a lot to me! :)

The End